Control

Lately I have this strangest feeling I am having less and less control over things that are happening in my life. And it scares me, walking around with this feeling. And I thought perhaps the biggest issue I had faced for the past decade of my life (since im 22, that's pretty much half of my life -_-), will somehow find itself diminishing slowly as I age. In fact, issues are worsening. 

And this time, I really really have no idea what to do T_T 

I tried talking to people. But somehow it doesnt work too well. They either get

1) disturbed

2) not used to this side of me, and try to coax out another side of me which they prefer

3) tell me to be more grateful/complacent/count blessings (mahai, so cliched!)

4) tell me to pray (even worse!)

Pre-quarter life crisis WTF